When I started blogging over two years ago, I had no idea who would read it besides my friends and family and then I figured out that anyone could read it. My blog was emailed to my friend's friends and family and so on. Word spread and people now read what I write! Kind of funny to think about. What started out as devotionals I wrote and emailed out daily, became more of a journal on the world wide web. I love it, I really love it. It's brought great healing to my life.
Last year my Mom introduced me to a fabulous Christian author that writes fiction, Francine Rivers. I've never liked fiction but this author I absolutely adored. Most people who are not believers do not go to a Christian Bookstore and buy Christian books. Some do if they are searching or trying to understand what it is we believe but 99.9% of non believers or people seeking would not pick up a Christian Fiction writer. There are a lot of personal choices I make solely on my conviction, my belief and my relationship with Christ. Francine Rivers or Beth Moore does not seem to be writing books for non-believers. I believe they can have impact on whomever they choose but I believe that their target audience is a believer.
So here's what I want to explain for my blog. I am a sold out Christ follower, Jesus freak, Bible believing girl and I feel with ever fiber of my being that I need to talk about how Christ has changed me life. I'm gonna write about my own walk and the things God is teaching me. And the majority, almost all of what I write, will be for the Christ follower. I know God can use me to minister to all types of people but lately I have been confused as to what my purpose is! My purpose is to be me and share all that God has done in my life! I'm excited about being a Christ follower and I think more Christians need to be excited! If you are not a believer, if you do not believe in Heaven or Hell or don't believe that you have to have a relationship with Jesus in order to go to Heaven, if you believe there is no God, then my blog will probably not be something you would enjoy reading. If you don't like my thoughts or maybe think I am weirdo, or think what I have to say is not truth, please don't read my blog. It's not for you. I don't particularly care for Hillary Clinton, so I won't read her book and I definitely will NOT vote for her. (Sorry not trying to get political but sometimes I can't help myself.) :)
Through out my blogging journey, I have gone through many seasons and now I am in a new one. I plan on writing about it and talking about it because God is doing some pretty amazing stuff in my life. Over the last eight months, my blog, my verbiage, everything about me has come into question and I have been told that I am limiting myself on who I can reach. So I had to ask myself, "Am I trying to reach people with this blog? Or am I trying to convert people with this blog?" I think God can use this silly little blog for both but the only answer I have to my own two questions is this. I am being myself and sharing with a part of this world what God has done and is doing in my life. That's all I know. If God decides to use it in the Christian's life or decides to use it in a seekers life, AWESOME! Really, I think I am someone who is trying to challenge the Christians ideas and reason for doing things. The "Church" has been a mess and I think us Christians need to quit being so lazy and quit walking around so miserable. We have the greatest gift ever yet we walk around with so much stress, anger and we don't know how to love people! So really, I think I should be ticking Christians off, if anybody! I've been radically changed, radically transformed and if the Word of God offends, if my verbiage offends, my God is big enough to show anyone, even those that don't like me where my heart truly is. This blog is unique. The things I say on here are true and it's truly how I live my life. And if I ever did write a book, it would be a Christian one and some of you would not buy it or even pick it up off the shelf. I think the same should apply for my blog.
No matter who you are, where you come from or what you believe, if you met me in the grocery store, I think you would really like me. I'm just a wife, a mom and a friend trying to find meaning in this life just like everyone else.
