Mom's blog, sucky days and the truth!

My Mom has started blogging again. I am so proud of her! It seems my relationship with her is constantly growing. She is about to turn fifty and I am about to turn thirty-two (yes, just barely eighteen years between us) and we still have days where we don't understand one another. We still hurt one another's feelings and get ticked off from time to time. We struggle to communicate, we struggle to work it out so we just have to move on. Well, I communicate and she struggles with my need to communicate. Mom likes to forget things and not talk about them. I like to talk about them and then forget! While we are very much opposite, we are very much the same.

The more I get to know my Mom, the more I see that even though she is older than me and smarter (yes, I said smarter), she is just like any other woman. Even though she seems to be the most confident woman in the world when you meet her (and she is confident), she still questions herself on her pillow at night. Even though she always looks decked out in a pretty outfit and her hair and makeup looks perfect, she still has those days where she wonders if she really is pretty? She tries on fifty different outfits, looks in the mirror over and over again to make sure her butt doesn't look too big (you know you do that ladies!) and she cries when someone hurts her feelings. She has days where she doesn't feel like a good wife, a good mom or a good friend and days where she wants never get out of bed. She is woman. What woman doesn't feel this way every once in a while?

Interesting. Today I am having one of those days. Actually, this is day two for me. Well, I felt like this on Saturday too so I guess we skipped Sunday and made this day three. It's one of those days where I don't feel like a good wife. I know I am a good Mom, except it's hard to be a good Mom when you don't feel like a good wife. I know I am a good friend but today I don't feel like being one. Today, I would like to crawl up in bed and sleep. Or actually, I would really like to go to Starbucks all by myself with my Bible and order a Grande, extra hot coffee with room for cream. Or maybe an Eggnog latte! I haven't had one of those this Christmas season. But, I was thinking about my Mom this morning and the struggles she has had and how she does such a good job of putting on a smile no matter what. I give her a hard time and tell her that is being "fake" but I'm learning that maybe it's okay to fake it sometimes. Maybe that's when we choose to be happy and smile even when our insides are making us want to run away. The power of life and death are in the tongue, right? My Bible says so. Well, maybe the power of life and death is in your smile too. This morning I read Mom's blog and felt so filled up by her words. Her Seasoned words. Today she is talking about the things that we say and how much our words resonate with not only others but within ourselves.

It helps to know Mom, someone I admire and look to for support, has days like me. So if anyone comes to this blog and thinks I look like I have it all together and have the perfect life, family and so on. Well, don't be mistaken. I am just like you. My days are sucky too! Hopefully you are like me and you know that the truth will set you free! Finding the truth on days like this is hard. It's hard not to listen to that stinkin' thinkin' mind! You have to press in and listen for the TRUTH! Today, I am soooooooo trying to press in. One thing that really helped was my Mom's blog this morning. I pray that it helps you too.

Go here to read it! The coffee pot is beeping, the kids play time has expired and now I must go be a Mom.