I just looked at the course elevation for the 10K on Sunday. Central Texas is known for hills, which is why they call it "The Hill Country". But you see, I live in the flattest area of Central Texas so my running has been on flat ground. I almost wish I would not have looked at the course elevation but I did! And let me tell you, I began to cry. Seriously. CRYING.
You see I have sang, spoke, acted and even prayed in front of thousands of people into a microphone. I have done something that most people are terrified of and nothing about it is scary to me. It's exciting! The bigger the crowd, the better I feel. But a few moments ago, I freaked out about this race. I have NEVER BEEN THIS NERVOUS ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT CHILDBIRTH with my first baby! I know, I know. It's only 6.2 miles. But that's just it. I think living here in this part of Texas is intimidating for a "so so" runner like myself that I have made myself feel like a 10K is not a big deal and it is! EVERYONE RUNS HERE! Knowing so many people who run makes me feel in many ways that I have to keep up with every one's time and run a nine minute mile race. The truth is, I feel like crap when I run at a nine minute pace! Ten is hard too but eleven feels good. Just knowing that everyone at church will say, "How was your time?" is really making me sick to my stomach. What I have done with running is amazing if I really look at it. I have three small children. I'm a stay at home Mom, I am homeschooling a pre-kindergartner, I have ministry responsibility, menus to plan for home, a house to clean, laundry to do, a husband to love, friends to hang out with and a lot of other stuff AND I am running! It may sound like I am bragging but it's just the truth of what is going on in my life. Because of my commitment to running, I am in the best shape of my life. I have never, ever been in this kind of shape before. Not only has it changed my body, it's changed my mindset, my time with God, my attitude, it's changed everything. So why can't I just enjoy the race and quit worrying about so many other things?! :)
To top it off, I should be "starting" any day now. (Sorry to any men who may be reading) Starting Sunday would be a total kick in the butt so I am praying it happens NOW! It's usually not a very big deal anymore, running has really helped in that area so I know it won't be bad but I do know how my mind feels during that time and I usually feel very tired.
So I guess I just decided to blog about this to at least get it out there and pray that I can get a decent time. Oh good grief I am so nervous about this and I need to relax! Tomorrow night my friends are having a birthday party for me (actual birthday is April 2nd). I am very excited and I know it will be a lot of fun, especially since I have never had a Birthday party as an adult and only a couple as a child. I am thrilled! My friends rock! Some of them will be waiting for me at the finish line on Sunday and I'm pretty sure I will cry when I see them, Jeremy and the kids.
Pray for me y'all! I need it!
11 comments:
you're going to do just fine. And who care's about your time...as long as you're happy with it, that's all that matters.
However, you need to be done in time to sing at the second service, so you may want to shoot for an 8 minute mile. :-)
Drooooooooooooo
you are more than prepared for this! wish i could be there.
You are going to do just great and have an awesome experience to talk about. Please do not let it be about your time. I am also praying for your time to start to come early for you my sweet sweet friend. I am so sad that I can not be at the finish line on Sunday to hug you and cry with you!! No matter the outcome you have trained for this and are ready for this 10K. You have oh so much to be proud of:)!
I love you!!!!
You ROCK! You are going to have so much fun!!! And Happy Birthday by the way!
pssst...parsley tea works to 'bring it on' early'. you can get it at any health food store.
Good luck - I'm so jealous of you!
V.
Silly girl! Don't go crazy about your time - just focus on you. Seriously, it's your first race at this length, you are just getting started with your running career and how many of those super fast runners have had 3 kids!! You are doing amazing, and an 11-minute mile for 6+ miles is fantastic. Don't let people steal your joy - remember why you are running...for you. ;-)
And happy birthday a few days early!
Erin
You will do fabulous. Just remember, the run is about you and your goals, no one else's, that is what is cool about running!
girl you will run and do well... God is going to give you all you need and when you cross the finish line you will be SO proud of yourself.... AND so will everyone else! Wish all your blogging buddies could be there =0)
you will do great. the adrenaline rush will put you over the top. have a good weekend.
can't wait to hear about you fam vacation.
I am so excited for you! Running a 10k is awesome!! YOU are awesome! God will give you the strength you need. I can't wait to hear all about it.
My prayers are with you!
Love to you friend
Elizabeth
Y'all sure know how to make a girl feel good! :) Thanks everybody!
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