Today is one of those days where I am just struggling to get through junk in my mind. I put together a set list for this coming Sunday's worship and as soon as I put it on cd and passed it out yesterday morning to the band, I knew it was not the set we needed to do. For whatever reason, I did not have peace about it. So last night I laid in bed, unable to sleep, with a heavy heart. As I thought about the message and the songs I had chosen, I felt unsettled.
This morning I woke up and knew I needed to change some stuff but I doubted myself. I struggled with feeling insecure telling the band about the changes I wanted to make. Finally, after getting an email from our Worship Pastor, I knew the Holy Spirit was coming in loud and clear. I feel like God used him to send the words through an email that would bring just what I needed. I needed affirmation, I needed approval. It's so amazing how God uses our friends, family, people around us to communicate what He knows we need. When the following words showed up in my inbox, I felt God speaking to me through my Worship Pastor. It's amazing what we can do as human beings when someone believes in us. What a gift!
I want to encourage you to trust what you know about leading worship when it comes to this Sunday. YOU are the worship leader this Sunday, and you are going to do great! . :-)
Those words gave me the confidence to do send out something entirely different and I know God will use this in a powerful way on Sunday because it's HIS set, not mine.
No one in my family has ever been a part of the worship when I have lead. It's something I am struggling with so much today. My dream of leading worship has come true and no one in my family or Jeremy's family have been able to come in town when I lead. I know everyone is busy and has their own schedule but I really wish I had their faces to look out at.
Friends, please keep me in your prayers this week. I'm excited about doing what God has given me a burning passion to do. I pray God will use my voice to connect hearts to His. That is my dream.
If you would like to hear one of the songs I'm doing, you can go here and click on the song STRINGS. This will be after the message. It's going to be a powerful message about "Acceptance" and the woman caught in adultery and brought to Jesus by the Pharisees. I can picture her singing this song every time I hear it.
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Thank you for sharing. So often I give in to the discouragement and don't follow HIS leading. Your words remind me to have an obedient heart like Abraham with Isaac on the mountain and GOD'S will will be done. Enjoy the service because your passion will make it great in your heart.
One of the greatest challenges of a worship leader is getting over our own fears and doubts about what God is speaking to US. I'll be praying for you. By the way, I love misty Edwards, and "strings" is my favorite song of hers. God bless!
I love that song by Misty Edwards. I got hooked on her when you mentioned her a while back. I now have her songs on my ipod and listen to them daily! Your heart for worship and for the Lord is so obvious, that HONORS HIM and HE will bless your obedience! BLESS YOU!
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