Just in case some of you are wondering where my last post went, I decided to save it as a draft. I have received numerous emails from many of you. All of them very encouraging but some of them telling me that Jesus will heal me and I don't need medicine.
I don't mentally or physically have it in me right now to share how I feel about those statements and how upsetting they can be. I'm actually very disappointed in a way because I do believe God can heal me. I also believe that if you are a diabetic and need insulin to stay alive, you take it. If you are someone who sent that kind of email to me, please don't take this personal because I have received more than one.
Please respect that this is a very difficult time for me right now as I walk through trying to understand what's going on chemically in my body. Emails suggesting that me taking medicine for anxiety is a "mistake" is not what I need right now. If you feel I have missed God and have made a mistake, please pray for me and I am confident He will show me. The emails are coming asking what is wrong with me, etc and it's just a little too much for me right now. I struggle to not feel "messed up" and some of the messages coming my way are making me feel that way.
It's my own fault for sharing and opening up about something so personal with the rest of the world and I believe all of you have good intentions. But I need some "handle with care" kind of treatment right now. I know how Tom Cruise feels, I know how a lot of you feel and you are entitled to feel that my choice to take medicine is wrong. I just happen to disagree.
Please keep me in your prayers!
