Because You Love Me by Jo Dee Messina

When I think about the things I have put Jeremy through, I am amazed that he is still beside me. I was a twenty five year old girl that was not capable of receiving love until he broke through and taught me that he would love me no matter what. During our short courtship, I did everything I could to run him off . I did not think it was possible to have someone like him in my life. He wasn't perfect but I didn't know it at the time. When I met him, I was going through beauty school. I had just quit a good paying corporate job to chase a dream and I had no money. As soon as we began dating, he began to take care of me. He did not want me to work but concentrate only on school. So, he paid my car payment, my insurance and any other bills I had. He truly took care of me in every way possible from the very beginning.

I will never forget driving to beauty school one day and crying because I was so afraid of loosing him. It was a moment I will never forget because it was a moment I knew I heard from the Lord. The Holy Spirit spoke to me and said, "He's not on loan like a pair of jewels. He's not someone in your life for just the time being. It's not another dating relationship that will end. This is the person I have brought to love you and bring healing to your life like you never experienced before." As soon as I got to school, I wrote all of that down and just a few days ago I read it. Now, six years later, three children later, He is still by my side and I am so blessed.

My life growing up was so hard and I lived in constant fear. Nothing was secure, nothing was stable. But Jeremy came into my life and brought hope and healing. God used him to restore me in more ways than I could ever write about. He truly is and always will be my healing balm. I love him so much it hurts. I think about him constantly. Sure, I get mad at him and sometimes I get REALLY mad. Our relationship takes work and sometimes a lot of work, but he is my best friend.

Because He loved me, I have found a whole new Amanda. I wrote a song and sang it to him at our Wedding. I was not sure if it was going to work out so I had this song as a plan B. My song worked so I did not sing it but, I would still like to sing it to him someday. Because He loved me, I was able to learn how to love myself and that's why this song means a lot.

Thank you Lord for Jeremy. You have used Him to bring healing to my life. I can feel you loving me through him. Please show me and teach me how to serve and love him more.