draw close

I was talking to a friend yesterday about my relationship with God and how it has a changed a lot since we have moved. This has been a time in my life where I have felt the most free. (Galatians 5:1, 5:13) In the past I have really struggled with a lot, a ton of self condemnation and when that happens I don't operate in freedom but in fear. My flesh still longs to operate in fear but I have had some major breakthroughs personally since our move. There is no doubt in my mind that our move from Dallas to Austin was way more than a geographic change, it was spiritual too.

It seems that I am constantly trying to find a balance between my conservative church days and now. While I do feel a lot of freedom in my walk, I am so blessed to have the background that I do. At times I need the challenge, the correction, the scriptures thrown my way in order to get further. I won't lie, I miss the pew and all that comes with it.

Some would not agree with me but I truly believe with all of my heart that we CANNOT grow in Christ without feasting on His Word. It's essential. Lately I have not been fighting flesh and blood, I've been fighting the enemy and there is nothing that will cause him to flee quicker than scripture. He has no choice but to flee.

This morning I have a short, little road trip I have to take and I am really looking forward to spending some time by myself in the car and feasting on worship and prayer. Today I need it desperately and I feel an urgency to draw close to Jesus. When I get on that stage Sunday, I want it to be all about HIM, I want to worship HIM with every fiber of my being.