There is so much I have to say about this day but it's still sinking in. I'm not sure my thoughts can truly put into words how incredible today was for me and my daughter. It was magical! I actually experienced a dream come true today. As a little girl I dreamt of being a ballerina. I did get to experience the stage as a singer but found myself always dreaming of being ballerina too. Like any little girl I loved to twirl and pretend on my own that I was Clara being greeted by the Sugar Plum Fairy and her court. Ahhhhh! I can hear the music just thinking about it!
Today was another day God blessed me with that I will never forget. He continually uses my children as sweet and soothing healing balm to redeem the past. Just listening to the orchestra warm up brought tears to my eyes. Then holding my sweet daughter's little hand as the music began and she asked me over and over again, "Where are the ballerinas Mommy?".
This little girl has changed my life. Something about this little girl has allowed me to experience so many things I never did when I was growing up. Even her beautiful, long, blonde hair is something I prayed for my daughter to have. Daily I would lay my hands on my belly and pray for her hair specifically when I was pregnant with her. And I will never forget when the sonographer was telling me the sex of the baby and said, "Well Mommy, it's a ballerina. Look at her jump!".
She is a dream come true. I adore her. I love her more than words can describe. She is my life. The Holy Spirit has really been showing me some things in myself that I struggle with and how much Ava Beth is watching those struggles. I want to have victory over many areas in my life so I can show other women how to do the same. The most important woman that will be is my daughter. She is watching how I handle every joy, heartache or trial that comes my way. I am teaching her how to respond to all of the above. Just thinking about it that way makes me want to change so much. But I know my daughter can learn from me as I continue to be in the "process". Oh how I love her!!!!
Tonight she is asleep in her tutu. She put it on over her pajamas and refuses to take it off! Before kissing me goodnight she said, "Mommy, I am dreaming of ballerinas tonight." And I am too.
I am dreaming of a baby girl dancing across my heart changing my life every single day.
(Ava Beth's dance class learned about the Sugar Plum Fairy Dance last week and will be performing a little Christmas dance at The Dance academy's Christmas party. We will be out of town for the half marathon and Cowboys game but thankfully they will perform it for the parents next week. She loves, loves, loves her dance class!)
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This brought tears to my eyes... I hope that I can always have my eyes open to what God tries to show my thru my baby boy. You two are so beautiful and looked amazing today! I can't tell you enough how blessed I really am to have met you thru a blog several years ago. I believe its been 5 years now... I hope you feel hugs coming from Arkansas!
BTW I finally posted a new pic! Check out how big Piercen is getting!
Ave Beth is getting soo big and grown up! You both look BEAUTIFUL!!
It is awesome how God uses these girls to heal our hearts! What an incredible gift! I know you will remember it for years to come! Treasure ever moment....They grow up to fast Madison will be turning 11 in January, I still remember when she was 4 like it was yesterday! PS I Love the Family
Pic! Hugs!! Melissa
Having a little girl is one of the best and hardest things! It really makes you work on yourself, not wanting to pass those things down! Glad you guys had a good time!
I am so very happy for you. I know you want that very special bond with Ava Beth. This is a special memory not only for you....but Ava Beth will cherish this as she grows older. These are he precious and wonderful and blessed memories from her childhood. Good job MOM!!
This post does makes me a little sad. Not for you, just our circumstances of an unknown future.
I pray Carmyn and I will get to experience that kind of fun and joy. Her future is so uncertain. HUH I am going to go pray.
I am crying as well. You are so right about that special relationship with daughters. God has used my daughters to fill a void that I never imagined could be filled.
I know our culture would have us believe that as our children grow older, they are expected to grow more distant from us (during their teenage years). I just want you to know that it isn't true! As my girls get older, those special dates like you and Ava Beth shared become more and more special and full of grown-up conversations! While our mother/daughter relationship maintains biblical integrity, we have always been the closest friends.
Amanda. I am so happy for you and this special relationship God has given you with Ava Beth. I miss my mother so badly and cherish the times I spent with her. Like you, she made such an effort to create "moments" and they have lasted in my heart for all these years. It is a blessing beyond words and you have given your baby girl such a gift.
Thank you for sharing this today. I am going up to wake my girls with a snuggle in bed!
By the way. I LOVE THAT DRESS!!! I love the whole outfit!!! Promise if you ever come to Virginia (ha!) you will take me shopping!!!
You girls look GOR-GUSS!
-as my girls would say ;)
Aah! How precious! Y'all look beautiful. I LOVE your dress. Ava Beth looks precious in her little too too.
I love you and wish I could have been with y'all.
I agree, you both look beautiful (my little Claire says "Booful") :)
And, raising girls is indeed, one of the hardest things that I have ever done! I constantly think of my past and what I don't want my girls to become, mistakes that I don't want her to make. I pray so hard for my girls (my son too, but it's just different!) I see myself in Claire & Lily so many times and it makes me feel both joyful and a little scared!
Looks like you girls had loads of fun; I wish there was something like that around here that I could take my girls to. Especially Claire, she is really into the ballet. :)
And, I LOVE your dress, it looks great on you; you're so skinny!
Have a great week!
~Julie
Oh Amanda - you brought me to tears! The beauty of your relationship with Ava Beth and the special moment that will be treasured forever by both of you...precious! I love how you speak of your desires and I pray that my heart is open to all that God has to teach me and heal in my life through my children. And I loved that you said you've noticed AB watching struggles you deal with. That is currently an area that I am praying and working on - and to hear it referenced to again - God is speaking... I am listening! :)
Thanks again friend -
SO glad you were able to do that together! What a special memory!
You both look so beautiful. Where did you find the dress? I love it.
Wow! Y'all rock! Thank you!!
The dress, the shoes, the tights, ALL Target! :) The jewelry? My Mom brought me a stash on loan at Thanksgiving.
I am just glad non of yall noticed my weird tan lines from running. I have them in the middle of my arms where they bend while I am running and then all kinds of weird ones on my arms from the Garmin and shirts I wear. I was worried they would show up in the picture a lot worse than they did! :)
ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL. I CAN JUST HEAR HER. YOU BOTH LOOK ENCHANTING.
Amanda,
I don't comment much on your blog but I read it every day. You didn't leave comments open on the post about the Shack. But I just finished it too and WOW! Like ou I wanted to put it down at first but Holy Spirit wouldn't let me.
It has changed my life.
Truly.
THank you my sweet cousin for posting this. I am so glad you are in my life and even more glad that you show me daily how much fun it is to a have a little girl. I cannot wait to do all the fun things that go with having a ballerina of my own!Love you to pieces!
You both are so precious. Hugs!
You both look stunning!
I can relate about the preciousness of having a daughter. Mine is 2.5 and I feel so incredibly blessed! I am so happy for my little girl. Her daddy loves her and delights in her.My relationship with my dad was not that way at all so I think the Lord is providing some healing for my heart by watching the two of them. It's awesome! Blessings to you all and so happy you had such a nice day together!
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