Without a shadow of a doubt I can tell you that I WOULD NOT BE AT THIS PLACE if I were still pursuing a passion (marathon running) outside of my home like I have been the last two years. Do I miss it? Yes. Will I run again? Yes. Will it be at the level it was? I don't feel I can reconcile that when my family is growing and needs me as much as they do. I don't feel I can put that much passion into something without neglecting my family. Even though I ran at night or ran when it did not interfere with family time and I was homeschooling, running had my heart. My family did not. Giving up my time, my passion and even my figure was me trusting Jesus and following Him. Radical? Maybe so but I want to be a disciple. A radical disciple!
27 And if you do not carry your own cross and follow me, you cannot be my disciple.
28 “But don’t begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it? 29 Otherwise, you might complete only the foundation before running out of money, and then everyone would laugh at you. 30 They would say, ‘There’s the person who started that building and couldn’t afford to finish it!’
31 “Or what king would go to war against another king without first sitting down with his counselors to discuss whether his army of 10,000 could defeat the 20,000 soldiers marching against him?
(P.S. The family devotion time has been amazing and the kids get excited for family devotion time! Jeremy has been an AMAZING leader! And I hear him constantly referring to scriptures we have discussed when he is in the midst of parenting one of the kids. Love it!!!)