The stomach bug has hit our home. It has not hit all of us, just me and Zeke so far. I got sick at church and had to leave. I came home and slept all day long. I'm hoping and praying that it runs it's course fast. Even as I type, my stomach rumbles. The thought of all three kids getting it, really overwhelms me to the point of tears.
Truthfully, I can't tell if this is the stomach flu for me or just nerves. I don't share as much on this blog as I did in the past. I'm not sure what is appropriate or not appropriate anymore. At times I really miss sharing my struggles and being emotionally raw for the world to see. Now days I spend a lot of time worrying who will read and worry about me. If I write something crazy, those around me will be concerned. If I write something that makes it appear I am hurting, those around me will want to help. Recently I have discovered that there are many more people reading/lurking this blog than I thought. The stat counter only reveals so much but when I hear through the grapevine of others reading, I do get a little freaked out.
I love posting pictures, cute stories of the kids, recipes and silly things to allow all of you into my world but I am much more satisfied being totally transparent. I'm not sure sometimes what I should and should not write. The only thing I can share right now is that I am struggling and I can't share. I'm not depressed, I am not mad, I'm just trying to understand what God is up to in my life. :) And I think that's a great place to be.
Your prayers are appreciated! :)
9 comments:
I'm so sorry to hear you are sick. :( I know how hard it is to be sick and have little ones...and I understand feeling overwhelmed.
I am praying for you, for the things shared, and for what is kept quiet in your heart.
Love,
Liz
Oh, I do pray the bug does not go trough the whole family.
You are in my thoughts always.
BTW~~I wish you could here Colton say "Cowboys" it is so cute. It would make you smile for sure!!
What you're describing is growth. Growth on the way to Surrender.
It's a daily thing that comes with a dose of questions, of tears, and of prayers. It's a good thing our father takes all three of those as currency in the kingdom of heaven.
I just attended a weekend conference with Michelle Borquez of "God Crazy". I think you'd like her book!
God Bless!
V.
I'm going to email you.
I hope you and Zeke are better soon - I HATE the stomach thing b/c I hate to throw up!
Keep me posted ;o))
Nancy
Oh I was hoping you all would escape that bug but after being around your friends last Friday... oh well. Look at it this way, you get it over with before Thanksgiving and Christmas! :)
Praying for you dear friend!
Praying....
I hope that you don't have it! I can't imagine with three kids. Will definitely be praying for you! And I totally agree with you, if God is making you question, you are close to Him and He is doing amazing things in your life!
Your transparency is what draws people to you. I understand about people around you reading too much into it and feeling the need to fix you. But I miss the honesty because it always taught me something and helped me grow. I hope you will be able to find a balance.
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